Whole day wasted eating chocolate in bed
It sucks to wait for something if you feel like maybe it’s just going to waste your time in the end and getting scared of how much it’s going hurt but it would hurt even more to not even have that possibility no matter how small it may possibly be.
I might not go to school this semester because I feel like I’m going to die and then I’ll leave my family with a loan to repay and that’s shit horrible.
I wish my doctor would give me medication that doesn’t make me want to bang my head against a wall
Anyone else on atypical antipsychotics get really depressed? Like my mood swings are more stable but I just feel worse and worse and worse
I just have no drive. Everything’s such a fucking chore. I’m tired all the time.
And even thought it’s an anti psychotic lately my paranoid thoughts/ideas have gotten worse. It might just be brought on by the depression
I wonder if everyone who feels suicidal actually killed themselves how many less people there would be?
If you feel like no one loves you it’s very very probably that’s actually true
Can’t wait to come home and die lalalalalala
Life is pointless, relationships are pointless, love is pointless
When someone tells me they want to die I try to tell them everything will get better, you’re not trash, you’re a great person etc but really it comes out so empty out of my mouth
Hollow as fuck. Honestly, for some people I don’t think it gets better. At least not by itself, maybe if you maybe tons of drastic changes in your life. But I doubt anyone depressed has the energy to do much at least.
The shitty thing about depression is that sometimes you don’t see it coming. It slowly trickles into your life like little condensation drops that fall from your ceiling once in a while until you don’t notice that the whole room is now a fucking lake and all of the things you once cares for are washed away and now you are left alone to drown
Slow and painful death. And for me, telling myself little lies that I try to pretend I believe in only stretches the pain out more.
I want to run away somewhere not here
I got robbed walking back from the bus :C I had to give them my bag but thank god I didn’t have my wallet or anything
Don’t fall in love with someone—just don’t—because once they leave, my God, the person you used to be leaves with them.
I check my tumblr like every fiver minutes waiting for people to reply ;-;